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bad english coming

“Leave me. You know the reason, so there is no such thing as ‘hiding the truth’. I am sorry. I hope you’ll forgive me. Hardly, i believe, but if you are alive and well, I am happy. If you have found someone who makes you feel the way you make me feel, then I shall never look back. I lie. I am not able to let you go. Perhaps there is something wrong with me. Forgive me? With you everything was pleasure, remember? No, don’t let me think about us. Never again. Please, look at me. I can’t believe I am doing this. Please be happy, please. I am selfish, you said so. I hope you don’t remember me in the future. I was always a burden to you, no… Run with me. Let’s meet the world, see the true beauty of our world. Would you? Escape from this hell with me, would you? Bloody hell, I know the answer, so why I keep asking? I don’t want to live a life without you, but I have to go. Life without you is just surviving, not really living. Remember when we were the lucky ones? The ones everybody would be jealous of. I am sorry. I shouldn’t say such thing. I know I am making you hate me, but have this in your heart: I love you and I will always love you, so if you see yourself hopeless, taking your last breathe in this life, remember that. I love you. God, I will never love someone like I love you. But I can’t do this anymore. You are in danger with someone like me. My dear, it makes me sad saying this, but I hope I was just a page in your history, even if you were a whole book to me. So, let’s make a promise, together. I promise you, I will let you go. I am sorry again, but I cannot do such thing; say that i will let you go and then cry every night trying to remember the sound of your voice, the softness of your skin, the shine you have in your eyes when you want something. No, I can’t do this to myself. Remember, I will be just behind you. Goodbye, my dear, my love, my only love. Please, don’t come after me. Ignore me. Make it seems like I wasn’t even alive. Goodbye. Bye."